To my friend(s)...
hi all...
seems like i've alot to say in me...but dunnoe if i can type it out...
It's been about 2mths since i'm at my lowest point of my life... It's tough... very tough. I tot i can't make it, though i wanted very much... the heart just hurt so much... much more than u can imagine. Every morning was a disaster. it's like... hell... Wherever i went, i cried... n cried... n cried... till i'm really sick of myself. The used-to-be wonderful memories were haunting me, even up till today. At tat time, I wished tat i could juz die or go into coma or watever...so tat i dun need to think...so tat i can rest from this world tat can't be pause. Life seem so meaningless... so lost... so lonely... so empty... I'm disappointed, filled with anger, sad, missed, helpless etc... It's like so many feelings altogether! and i'm in a lost of wat to do...
Try not to think? i wish i can. Our brain won't stop. the more u dunwan to think, the more u think. I'm really at a point of losing control of my life. Nth interest me anymore.
Fortunately, I've a very supportive family & a very encouraging bunch of friends. They wiped my tears, listen to my cries n sorrows... again n again... and, I've get to know and accepted God in this terrible journey of my life. He accepted me when i'm broken... He heal me and give me peace, joy, love and hope in life. He revealed to me the rights n the wrongs... some of the things that i wanted to know very much. there're lots more...
Everything happens for a reason. It's just that we don't know the reason.
U can choose either to hold on and hurt urselves or let it go and welcome the bright future. When u choose to let go,
allow urself to do it. put action into it. nobody can pull u up if u dunwan to get up. it's ur choice. u can see our hands, do u? we can't help u if u rejected our offer, rite? u know tat urself. so make a wise choice my dear...
After every
rain n storm, there'll be
rainbow n sunshine. life is the same. it's only a matter of time. I assure u, ur
sunshine would come, and u can see the
rainbow, that rainbow tat belongs to u. U muz be patient...take ur time... remember:
You are not alone.
I know it's easier to say than done... but sometimes, we don't have a better choice. Don't ask WHY. sometime it's better we're left without an answer. I still have my problems till dis very day. i'm still struggling. but i wanted to see the complete sunshine and that rainbow tat belongs to me. i know u can do it too. all the best, my fren! Thank God for everything... God bless all... :)
